Like after a month of not touching this thing, I've finally decided to login again and update. Anyway I've finally researched on something which I have been procastinating for ever so long. I must say though that I finally have a clear mind of what lies ahead instead of always lying in the dark.
With that done, I actually happen to open up a drawer which have not been touched for centuries. In it lies my secondary school report book and poly result slips. Upon looking at my secondary school results did I realised what an achievement I have done over the span of that 4 years in my life. From the dumps of being a failure, I actually managed to pull myself together and produce the best ever results in the whole 4 years for my prelims. So proud of myself =p hahaha. Anyway while I was doing that, I realised that teachers can never get enough of your work. From the sec 1 record all the way to sec 4, all I see in remarks is "...put in more effort and you will improve..." I mean for 4 years, really never put in effort meh?? haha lame ass remarks.
Work scope changing, hopefully life change, slowly steering myself back on track. First up, self-esteem. Been too low for way too long. Its about time it changes direction. Slowly ah slowly. Had a chat with someone I don't chat to often and I must say it was a refreshing change. Meantime the fight for that Monday is still on-going. Why is it always me? God damn it. Is my name so easily written or am I just being arrowed? Bloody hell.
Oh and yes with this update, I am indeed still alive and kicking. Wont give up the fight that easily. Just you wait and see.
Why is it that when you think happy thoughts, you are still sad?
Cos those happy thoughts are memories from the past...
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