it screws up the mind. screws up the life. friendships being placed on the line. how the hell did i ever get myself into this. its so mentally draining that there comes a point of breaking down. never given a moment to breathe easy. i hardly know where this is bringing me. sheesh. screw the force.
cash outflows been moving at a pretty fast paced of late. the advance pay came and seem to be going faster than expected. at this rate, i'll be eating grass the whole of november man. die die die. following week will be the most relaxed of them all. 2 hols smacked right in the middle of the week. wonderful. but at the rate the workplace have been activating me, the week might just turn ugly. sigh. and did i mention the hp is turning into a hotline. woo i couldnt believe the usage for the month man. perhaps i've been too nice to some "welfare organisers".
i feel lighter than normal these days. and went to get the weighing scales the other day. i lost like *gasp* few kilos. man oh man. lost it effortlessly. need a weight loss programme? lead my lifestyle and perhaps u'll be able to shed a few kilos here and there. sad lifestyle. dammit. lets see if i can ever gain as much as i lost in the months to come. body's a wreck these days.
~How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me~
how true. how true.
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