Love & Romance

Anyone can define love? Love is a special feeling. It is generally indescribable and when you go through it, you know that it is there.

Then how does one define romance? Romance is an emotional desire to connect with another person, usually with love being thrown in the context.

When used together, love and romance will evolve into something which is beautifully enjoyed by two people where it is special and only exclusive between them. That said, there are no guarantees in life that when one enters into love and romance, that they would stick with that person throughout their life. Things change. People change. Circumstances change. Everything changes.

Love and romance has unfortunately been quite a bane for me. It has brought me higher every time but has also resulted in me reaching the lowest of my low each time it fails. You slowly get back up. You pick up the pieces of your life. You clear the mess you left behind. You meet a new person whom you find special. Process repeats. Repeating it 4 times over and I think I have had enough.

Everything in life is about choices. I chose to go down this route time and again putting myself vulnerable and at risk of being hurt. When it happens, it would be unfair to blame anyone else except myself because if I had remained guarded in the first place, the fall won’t be hard and it won’t be harsh. Cynical and skeptical I have become for I don’t think that I am capable of doing this anymore.

They say love self first before loving others. I think over the years, I have lost this plot in life and have continually hit myself hard because I tend to love my partner more than I would love myself. Until I rediscover this part of myself again, I will never be able commit myself into another. Stop looking, give up trying.

To love is a duty; to be loved is a gift. For those who are deeply in love, cherish it for you never know when it might go away. For those who are not, continue searching for your true happiness. For those who have turn into cynics like me, give it some time, lower down that expectation and hopefully someday it will bite again. And of course for those who just want to be happy, leave it out of the equation altogether.