haiz~ life can be full of challenges huh...there's a saying that goes 'loving someone would be to see that someone happy even if it means letting her go and that you would end being more miserable than ever...'well this is wat im experiencing right now...about a month ago i broke up wif my gf....yeah yeah all tt tok of treating her well after all my projects juz didnt really materialise...she sighted religion between us as the main reason for the break-up...at the point she sms-ed me, i was at my house carpark and i juz stood there in the middle of the road...stunned and helpless...i called her thinking that maybe we can tok things thru but then to no avail so i decided to give in....tt proved to be the greatest mistake of my life...i regretted not goin back to the bus stop to take the bus all the way to her place....so that i could meet her one last time and tok things thru like we always do....

instead i did nothing about it and went to the reservoir to take a breather...called valen telling her wat had happened and simply broke down right there and then....in times like this would we realise how important friends are in our life....they provide security and a pillar of strength to us in times of need....after the breakup i was nv really my real self...i used to be the happy go lucky kind of person but nowadays im very gloomy about things....feeling lonely....in fact very lonely...she gave me her word and i took her word for it only to realise that at the end of it all it was yet again another passing cloud in my life...she has sinced moved on....got herself a new bf....a ex-bf as a matter of fact and that really made me mad....i couldn't control myself and i think many knew it.....i totally lost it at the point where she told me that she was attached to him...but i told myself that there was nothing i can do about it....now whenever i look at her, it would be different because i knew that at one point of time she was mine and i know that she could have been mine still....if not for the religion issue which she is scared her parents won't like, everything would have been fine.....life has just got better for her but not me....maybe this is retribution for all the bad things i have done over the years....

many of my frens had lend me their moral support and also provided me a shoulder to cry on....really grateful for them to actually be there for me in times like this....really wondered wat the outcome will be if i really took a ride down her place to clarify all the things wif her....if only....IF....but it all nv happened.....every night i would automatically think of her and every morning when i wake up, she came to mind again....its really very tiring but im trying hard to forget her.....its not goin to be easy but i have to try in order to move on....i cant possibly be stuck in this moment for my whole life huh....

Love is all but temporary, even though we weren't fated to be together now, at least once in our lifetime love between us was a reality...