Courtship

I’ve given up on them of late.
I’m too tired to continue fighting for it.
Too tired to go after something just to be disappointed at the end.
It’s been 2 years since. Almost a year or so for them.
The time-spent waiting is sickening that it makes me sick and tired.
Especially waiting for something, which is of futility.
Then there’s the one asking "How is it possible?"
Of course it’s possible, cause it has already happened.
Right in front of your eyes at that.
Are these model answers?
Or are you just leading people on?
All those while you have been sensing it but you put it off as intuition playing tricks with your mind.
I, on the other hand, am playing mind games with myself, and feeling confused over things.

Chasing and being chased is a wonderful feeling to me.
But when it gets long and draggy, it’ll be the most horrible feeling ever.
At times you just know that you need to let them know but you keep holding back.
Heart says go, mind says never.
You just have to treasure what you have built over the years.
Can’t bear to destroy them in a moment of weakness.
Its in times like this that you’ll realize that you will get nowhere.
That’s why, I’ve given up.
For the time being at least.
Things will happen when they happen.

Many (you know who you are) are faced with problems in one way or another of late.
But hopefully, all of them end up nicely and in place.
Never regret anything that has happened and live life to a 100%.
Life’s too short for too many unhappy things.

Lending a listening ear and sharing pointers are something I do with ease.
But whenever it comes to me, I fail badly.
Thus giving up and slowly picking up the pieces again.
Will be back stronger and better most definitely.
The outlook seems bright.
This will be it.
I’ll be back.
Girls *shakes head*